about studies and perceptions (or confirmations)

_ i started this study in October and, initially, it was just some gesture drawings of a live model sessions with Rafaela but, during the process, there was such a good connection that I ended up giving myself more soul than body to these studies

one of those transcendental experiences I would say.

the process, the drawings, the gestures, the here and now of that moment, the dance of living or the dance of action.

the performance of the image of a body that said so much without having its mouth open for a second

without explaining.

I think it was confirmation too, that I needed it,

about research, studies... investigations...

the course of things.

the course of my line of research that I was developing in 2020 but had started much earlier, is that I had not realized - or taken it out of the drawer

body is memory

body is history

interaction, environment, time, platforms, communication, relationships, social networks, social media all of this is a supporting element, a complement.

the study of the unconscious and our subjectivities help us to understand this body and by doing so it's possible to build realities that can be lived and endured, self-sustainable, from the understanding of our interpersonal relationships, our own collective languages

or,

as in good old Portuguese:

see, understand and inhabit yourself first and then relate to the other_

it's not possible to relate well with the other_ if we can't relate minimally well with ourselves

respecting our limits and

flaws_

the revolution is inside out.

there is no way to change outside if we don't change inside

or, at the very least, not understanding who we are,

where we came from, where we are.

our patterns, our beliefs, our pains, our shadows, our lights, treasures, contradictions and complexities.

I'd created the diary of living stories without realizing that I was talking about it too. but I think my subconscious knew in some point.

and here we are.

this has all been a journey of great discoveries for me

and continues to be

I'm still discovering a lot

like, for example, that everything is connected. and now I'm connecting some dots.

making connections has always been part of it

(and inside i knew it_)

weave stories

but this experience brought here and now kind of solidified this flea that bit me when I started, in fact, to start to focus more on studies and living in the skin,

body, soul, pain, tastes and displeasures and complexities what it is to be an artist living with art and doing art.

and it's been biting me until then

and so I've been working on these drawings and studies and it's been a delight, as well as another investigation process within an investigation

e assim, vou vendo o que vai se tornando

what already is

what it was

what it once was

and what is being