une chanson for all colors

untitled paisage - painted by 404tita

the artist is a very lonely animal, isn't it?

there's no way. lier is the person who says no.

you feel lonely while you're working (far from everyone, imerse at your own creative process), desiring to see people and interact in meanwhile but whe we're on social networks and things like that we can't wait to come back to our own solitude. Cause the loneliness keeps there - the loneliness of "my god, what i'm doing here? I should be creating!"

and that's become an infinite looping

i think that the reason this often happens is by the fact that we are indeed, and you know why?

because we are not like the others.

we see things in an very particular way and there's no way, it always be walking together, following the same steps as us, the loneliness.

isn't easy be an wolrd's conductor

it's a very challenging task

it's maddening, really

that's why we're called mad ones

today i understand that

i need to turn this into my friend

i thought i whas the one that had to has myself as my bestfriend only but i can add some person at this relationship! Shure i can!

we can be very happy together, Me, TITA and the loneliness.

i would add solitude at this non monogamous relationship too till i remembered myself that solitude is an state

and loneliness is an presence

if we don't hug ourselves we can endend up loosing ourselves in somewhere

or, better saying, myself right?

i endend up loosing myself again thinking i'm gonna reach the answers i need when actually at the outside i won't find what i need

cause i've been there before, so i know what is like

outside there is not what I'm looking for

and it gives me an tiresomeness and i want only just go away

i always endend up wanting to come back (home)

thankfully and fortunately i get it and reconize it

indeed, there is no better place than home

us, me, TITA and our loneliness. this powerfull and magical universe that we create

no one understand

shure, because they're outside and also cause most people don't see it that way

as i said, is not everybody that can reach the present that is to come back to the essence, the I-Artist

today i understand even more Lygia Clark and was so good to had readen her letter to Mondrian, that one she wrote for him at 1959 because now it really makes sense

and i no longer feel that lonely

this comforts me - there's a lot of people sharing this feeling - there was tooo

it will always exist

i have no more fear to give my heart

i give it intensely

but not my mind.

heart bursting with love (2019) - gouache and soot on paper